Sinful Habit

July 4, 2008

Sweet. Intoxicating.
Biting cold. Black juice.
Brittle chips. Like thoughts.
Of yellow and orange clovers.
Keyboards. Tapping. Empty air. Brisk. Vivid.

Gulp. Gulp. Gasp. Gasp.
In. Out. Out. In.
Shriveled throat. Thirst. Quencher. Oh, please.
There. On squares.
Of blue, yellow, and green.
Tin foils. Curl. Lust. Crave. Eternal. Detrimental.

Yeah. Just snacks.
Just some clover chips and coke.
A little bit of junk. A little bit of death.


In The Doldrums

June 30, 2008

I so wanna cry today, and I don’t know why. I wanna bawl like a newborn baby. Or blubber like a toddler. It’s just that these tear ducts are full and are ready to shed pail-full tears. But it would be nonsensical if I snivel inside the office, right? I swear I don’t want to wear a straight jacket and be taken by people in white coat.

And oh, these songs from Keith Urban just shred my heart to pieces. But I’m just drunk enough to let go of my pain. La La La.You see, I have never loved country songs until that day I checked my playlist.

Hayzz, today’s just another boring day in the office. How I hate Mondays.

Listening to “You’ll Think of Me” by Keith Urban

Libran at its Finest.

March 12, 2008

 As I was soul searching, I stumbled upon Pravs World. This is a site that opens your mind and touches your heart with words that make a positive impact. It describes your personality through your horoscope. As usual, bolahan na naman ‘to.

And so, let’s see what Librans get.

Librans love the concept of being loved, therefore are constantly searching for the perfect mate [nasa’n kana ba? where are you now? hehe]. They also love romance and consequently are good at it [wow. good in bed. i agree. hehe. walang kokontra. this is my blog! ]. Filled with personal dignity and elegance, you may find Libra to dazzle and captivate you time and time again. [charming! woooH! 😳 ]

They have many interests like theater, antiques, decorating, art, and themselves [i have to agree. i love art , especially paintings. ]. A Libra’s best quality is the art of conversation. They are fantastic conversationalists. Although, when discussing any subject, you may find the conversation leading back toward their favorite topic of interest, as they put a little bit about themselves into each conversation, placing the spotlight exactly where they want it. [ngeekss.. pahingi flashlight, este spotlight pala! 😆 ]

When out on a date with a Libra be sure to pay them a compliment. If it’s sincere, they will most definitely be charmed by you. If you pick out a restaurant, make certain the atmosphere is classy and don’t skimp on any of your plans [classy jud? ahak! pwede pungko-pungko lang? ]. A Libra wants to be treated as first class and does not like to settle for less, as they feel that their pleasure is well worth it. They want a partner that has good taste and quality [dapat lang. may taste yata ako. toinkz.]

As they adore luxury [maluho ba ako? lemme think.] and love to be pampered, impression will get you everywhere, so go all out, and don’t hold back.

With an easy going nature, you will find a Libra pleasant to be around [korek!]. This zodiac sign of partnership needs a companion who will understand, appreciate, and perhaps even idolize them [ngeekss. inde ako Diyos. wag nyo ko sambahin!]. If you’re searching for a partner that is socially outgoing and affectionate, you’ve found them [andito na ako! i’m all you need. paghati-hatian nyo nalang! wahaha! 👿 ].

They love to go to parties and enjoy a glittering extravagant social life [kamusta naman ang nightlyp ko? hmmm]. Although the Libra may be indecisive about making a commitment, once committed to a relationship, you will find harmony and peace with them [kaya, commit na. i’m single and available! 😕 ].

 At nagpapaniwala naman ako sa mga pinagsasabi ng hinayupak na ‘to. Kunsabagay, some of them are true. We can’t really deny that some superstitions work for us. We believe in superstitions because we are smart enough to know that we don’t have all the answers. Like, I don’t know why I’m good in bed. Or, why I’m good looking. Wahaha! Ang hangin!

And so I was wondering if all Librans have the same trait or personality. Well, I think I’m just too bored to believe all these.

All this is Blather.

March 9, 2008

Have you ever felt like being left out, and no matter how you do your best, you still end up beaten and bruised?

Have you ever felt so small, and no matter how you try to exist, you can’t be seen even through a microscope?

Life isn’t fair, indeed. You’ve done your best just so to keep up the pace, or to keep the competition heating up. Still, you end up being a loser. You belong to the minority. Minority, not because you belong to a group of few extraordinary people, but because you belong to nothing but an ordinary individual in a bunch of geniuses and hotshot individuals. You are a John or Jane Doe in a group of Einsteins, and Shakespeares, and Descartes, and Curies. You are an ant stepped on by elephants, and bulls, and hippos.

I, an individual. Ordinary individual. I am not trying to reach the peak of Mt. Everest, nor wanting to touch the moon’s dust. I just wanna be Me – someone who doesn’t have high hopes. Really.

I got an ordinary life. An ordinary (?) low paying job feeds me. I am just a run-of-the-mill kind of person. Nothing special. Nothing to boast. 100% Underpaid [according to my shirt]. (I’ll insert picture later.)

Oh, I got Home Made Peanut Brittle here. Want some?

Blab in Nanoseconds.

February 14, 2008

I’m not bitter coz I’m not ampalaya. I just want to move on. But you make me feel guilty. Pucha! I can’t help but think that you’re not okay. I thought you were. Really. The moment that you told me everything’s gonna be fine, I trusted you. I even trusted you long before.

Why is it, lately, you’ve been acting so cold? Giatay! Na-guilty na nuon ko. Maybe they were right – that lovers can never be friends after they separated. But you promised we’ll be friends no matter what happens. Dammit. But why do you have to avoid me? Why do you have to activate that incoming calls barring whatever? Don’t you know that you can’t receive calls, and even texts because of that? Pakingsheet.

Fine. Then, we should forget each other. I will forget I know you. I thought you were perfect. I thought. Dah. Suko na nuon ko. I will also delete you in my friendster’s list. Fine, friend’s list. I will erase your number though I actually memorized it. I will erase you in my distribution’s list. You will never receive texts, anyway. Advice nako, ilabay nalang na imung cellphone uy. Or, ipatimbang nalang kaha na? Or, ihatag nalang na nako beh? hehe.

I’m trying to be nice. I am nice. Really. But these things really pissed me off. You know the reasons why I let go. I thought you accepted everything. I thought you understand why. It’s not also easy for me, but I have to accept the fact that things won’t work out just fine. Why would I be in a relationship if I’ll end up being hurt anyway? I’m not yet martyr. I’m not a robot. I’m human, and I have a heart that’ll also bleed. I know being hurt is part of being in love. But it’s too much. Things are bleeding me dry. So, I’m hoping you’d understand. I know that it takes time.

If you think forgetting you [or forgetting me] is the best solution you could come up, then I’ll give you freedom. I can help you. Iparok nato imu ulo para ma-amnesia ka. Sorry if I’m being mean. I just want to know if you’re doing fine. I’m just concerned because, for once, you were a part of me. And, I can’t deny that I’m still in love with you. It was just like almost two weeks, and the wound hasn’t healed yet. Please, it’s Valentine’s day. Let’s forget and forgive. Let’s just not bear grudges. [Mapareha nya ta ni Sadaku sa The grudge.hehe] Let’s face and accept it.

Catherine Ponder once said, “When you hold resentment toward another, you are bound to that person or condition by an emotional link that is stronger than steel. Forgiveness is the only way to dissolve that link and get free.” Let us free ourselves para way gubot. Para way dugo nga mobanaw! Let’s move on. One step at a time. Forgiveness and letting go are steps on our road back to happiness. Para happily ever after dayon!