Dear God,

January 18, 2008

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From the very first moment I opened my eyes, you showed me light though blurry that I only saw some silhouttes. When I slept, you gave me peace of mind and warmth of a loving embrace. When I grew to become a toddler, my parents introduced me to you. Though I never really believed you existed, I always feel your presence. You were there when I fell from a tree. You were there when I was about to drown in a deep well. You were there when I almost sprained my ankles from tumbling down. You were there when I almost burnt my skin. You were there when I almost dried my eyes in tears. You were there when I was lonely. I was never alone because you were always there. You were even there when I learned to smile. You were there when I gathered medals from academic achievements. You were there when I saw Papa and Mama smile. You were there when my family laughed. See? You never leave me alone though I never really see you. You were always there though I feel happy or sad. Maybe I was wrong, then, that you never existed.

I know it’s not possible that I could talk to you face to face. I know it’s not possible that I could hug you whenever I feel sad. I know it’s not possible that I could cry on your shoulders when my heart feels like heavier than a nimbus cloud. I know it’s not possible to hear you reprimanding me when I commit mistakes. I know it’s not possible to hear your good advices when it comes to getting a life or living life to the fullest. I know it’s not possible to ask for your protection when bad guys try to hurt me. I know it’s not possible that I could smile with you often. I know it’s not possible that we could hang out together, or we could have good talks over a bottle of beer. I know it’s not possible, yet I believe you’re still there. Silly it may seem, but I sometimes doubt your existence. Then, my heart knocks my head off for thinking stuffs like that. Maybe, I was thinking wrong. Then, I realized I was.

Though you’re never here, you gave me good people around. You gave me my family to take good care of me. You gave me friends whom I can share stories and laughter (read: over glasses and bottles of red horse or tanduay). You gave me good people who taught me to read and write. You gave me people who taught me how to live and love. You gave me special people whom I can share my sentiments with. You even gave me someone whom I love, and who loves me in return. See? You were never here, but you are present in all the good people around me. Maybe, sometimes you should avail yourself of UNLITXT or SULITXT, so we could burn our thumbs, texting. These people never fail to text. I mean, I never fail to text them. They just receive and delete, by the way.  

I’m always a kid, and I don’t want that to change. It’s the only way that I could talk to you like you’re my big brother, or my playmate, perhaps. It’s the only way I could easily forget about bad things, and it’s the only way that I could never hold grudges in me. It’s the only way I could get close to you apart from getting close with the good people around me. It’s the only way I could easily ask for forgiveness whenever I make someone cry.

And like a kid, please don’t take away those things  that make me happy. I will really be hurt. I’ll have tantrums, and I will really hate you for that. I will not really wear a smile, and I will forget that we’re friends. But, I know you wouldn’t do that because you’re the best-est friend I ever had. And I know you would always want me to keep those things. I know; because you always want me to be happy. Also, I know you always give me some challenges. Please don’t expect too much out of me. I can’t always solve some Calculus problems, you know. Maybe, you could help me with those challenges, too. Isn’t that exciting? I am not being lazy to learn, but isn’t it good when someone’s there to help you out with solutions? And, I always want that someone to be you. We are friends, right? That’s why I always thank you for being there. I thank you for the good people around. I thank you because you always there to listen and help me out. And I want you to know that I really appreciate the effort you’ve shown.

I love you, and I always want you to stay.

 Sincerely,

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17 Responses to “Dear God,”

  1. Amen.

    @undercanopy

    Thanks for dropping by.

  2. lex22 said

    Hmmm. sabi mo your parents introduced you to God. Pero when I asked you who God is, di ka nakasagot.LOL.

  3. yuie said

    sheesshh…
    eheheh.. never expected that..
    God does not love you that much, really..
    Cause He gave u evil friends…ahahaha

  4. @lex22

    I chose not to answer. Kasi, alam ko ‘di mo rin xa kilala. Gusto mo rin magkaroon ng friend like Him. Yoko nga. Aawayin mo lang xa. Bad ka eh!
    @yuie

    Yeah! And ur one of those evil friends, ayt? 😛

  5. lex22 said

    @nickname,
    kaya ko nga siya gustong makilala para bumait ako eh. Ikaw ang masama kasi ayaw mo kong tulungang mapalapit sa kanya.LOL. Bad ka! Lagot ka kay Joker Arroyo.LOL.

    @lex22

    Kahit kailan ‘di ka na babait. Useless lang! hhmmpphh..

  6. yuie said

    hmmm… i prefer to call myself a fallen angel..wahehehe
    compared to you, im pretty tamed..lol..
    never thought of you as a religious type..
    anyhow, just pray for us…ahahha

    @yuie

    O, fallen angel (read: pinagkaitan ng langit?) hehehe…
    I also never thought of myself as a religious type.. this is not me…
    I’m pretty sure I’m having a multiple personality disorder.. wahaha!
    Don’t worry, I’ll pray for us.. wahaha!

  7. lex22 said

    @nickname,
    Asus. We all deserve a second chance. Alam ko marunong magpatawad ang Kumpare kong nasa langit.

    @lex22

    aahhh.. ganun ba? see? kilala mo naman pala siya. nagtanong kapa! hhmmpph! sali mo ‘yan sa blog mo! hehehe.. 😀

  8. lex22 said

    @nickname,
    Of course, I know Him. Kumpare ko nga eh.hehe. Alam ko He is always around katulad ni SUPERMAN. Nakatamad nang mag-edit eh. I’ll write another one for Him na lang.hehe

    @lex22

    hehehe.. uu nga! para naman kaawaan ka at buhusan ka ng maraming grasya! hehehe… tsaka, hindi siya masyadong kuripot.. kakainis nga lang minsan.. pinapahirapan pa tayo… ahehehe… pero, hindi ako nagtatampo.. hehe.. 😀

  9. lex22 said

    @nickname,
    Oo nga eh. Mabait naman ang Kumpare kong ‘yan. Binibigyan ako ng pambili ng beer at pulutan. But He advises me not to drink too hard. Baka raw magkasakit ako. Mapapaaga raw ang reunion namin pag nagkataon.LOL.

    @lex22

    binigyan ka pala? wow! share naman your blessings. baka bawiin nya pag nagkataon.

  10. lex22 said

    @nickname,
    LOL. Nag-share naman ako sa ‘nyo ah. Nalasing nga kayo ‘nong party eh. Binigay nya sa kin. Sabi nya naman, magshare daw ako. Kaya ‘yon, nilasing ko kayo nong Xmas party. Haha

    @lex22

    ayan nah! nagsinungaling kana! bawal yan! tsk3. sabi ko na nga ba lumalaki na ulo mo. para ka nang si kokey. hahaha!

  11. yuie said

    wow.. c lex nag share..
    gudboy.. bait mo naman.. sana kunin ka na ni Niya…ehehehe

  12. uu nga… sana kunin na cya ng Kumpare nya! waheheh… jowk lang… kinukuha kasi Niya mga mababait eh…

  13. beer-O said

    @nickname & yuie,
    Aba, nagkaisa pa kayo sa inyong mga ninananais.HAHA. Di nga, I’m sure blessing ‘yon galing sa taas. Can’t you feel that? Minsan lang bumaha ng beer sa lupa.LOL. Kaya nga nag-advise sya na mag-drink moderately ako para magtagal pa ko sa lupa. Kasi raw, sa langit walang beer.HAHA

    @lex22

    aahhh.. drin moderately ba ‘yun? wag daw maglasing.. eh, halos kainin mo nga yung microphone sa kalasingan eh.. tsaka, nagwala ka pa na parang kabayong wala sa kwadra.. walang beer sa langit kasi wine lang nandun.. di ba, ginawang wine ni Jesus yung water? so, wine lang nasa langit.. wahaha!

  14. yuie said

    damay mo pa si Lord sa kagaguhan mo.. tsk tsk..
    eheheh.. nalasing ka kasi di ka marunong mag control..ehehe
    at saka parang sure na sure ka talaga na sa langit ka mapupunta ah..
    sa rainbow pa cguro..pwede ka dun.. ehehe peace!

  15. uy, alam ko ang rainbow na yan! ahaha!
    pwede mag-slide dun! wahahah!
    sama mo narin yung iba, para churva-happiness! whahah! 😀
    peace out!

  16. beer-O said

    @nickname,
    LOL. Anong pinagsasabi nyong mga hinayupak kayo. Eh kung lasing ako non eh di ko na nakayang kumanta. Medyo nalito ako sa lyrics pero ok pa pag-iisip ko non. Enjoy na enjoy nga kayo eh.LOL. Oi Yuie, kung magsalita ka parang di ka rin nalasing ah.hehe. Talaga wine ang nandon? Parang gusto kong mapaaga dating ko don ah. Sigurado akong sa heaven ako mapupunta. Ni-reserve nya na nga ang executive suite para sa kin eh. Kaya sorry na lang, kayo na muna sa rainbow. Padadalhan ko na lang kayo ng wine para mag-enjoy kayo sa pagi-slide nyo.LOL.

    @lex22

    ganun ba? eh hanep naman pla imaginations moh.. para kang gumagamit ng condom ah! may hallucinations! try mo kaya withdrawal.. wahahah! jowk… hindi ka mapupunta sa langit nuh.. eniwez, libre naman mangarap… hangga’t buhay ka pa, mangarap ka muna… baka san ka pa mapunta.. wahehe… dun ka nalang sa rainbow, colorful dun.. sa langit, puro white nalang.. wahahha… 😆

  17. yuie said

    ako? nalasing? wow..
    news yun ah.. college pa ako ng huli ako malasing…wahahahah
    masamang damo itetch… tagal pa to…wahahaha…
    sa susunod na malasing, gawan ka namin ng scandal.. para hapi all…hahahha

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